Hope everyone is having a good Monday morning if there is such a thing. Anyway I just registered this early morning, and I debated whether or not to introduce myself now or wait... well I couldn't wait. I live alone in Detroit Michigan, I have always known I was somehow messed up, I remember some very discouraging conversations with girls in 2nd and 3rd grade. Those moments pushed me deeply into the closet, around 14 I found out that there was a such thing as SRS, it has been in the forefront of my mind since. I've tried all the ways out the problem, purging 10000 times, phony relationships, self destruction with a 19 day psychiatric lockdown in 1991, drugs,... none of it worked. My mother died the day after my first public adventure to a nightclub. This was less than 2 months ago, I have since been to the club five times... nothing is as intoxicating as fresh air. It's the only place I have been and I love it, the club is a gay bar with a ladies night on Saturday. About a year ago I decided to just say screw it all and be who I am, it is slow going. I dropped almost 50 pounds, to a slender 130 at 5'9", in preparation for getting on hormones, which I have been slightly less motivated to do as I fear not knowing what will happen, I worry I will be let down in development department. If I dont stop writing now I probably wont...
Love,
Yvonne
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