I feel for you, I really do. I went through the most dreadful depression years ago, I felt that there was only going to be unhappiness in my life until the day I died.
However, things did improve, my daughter came back into my life, I made new friends, went back to work, had my SRS, had my face done, moved to a new town.
You will get over this...it is a stern test of character...which you will pass with credit!
Do you want to tell us your story?
Best regards
celtwitch