Christine jorgensen, most definitely.. I thought it was the coolest thing ever.. I hesitantly asked my mother all about it when I was 5 years old...it was right at the same time that I had noticed how much I liked the idea of being a girl instead of a boy... She told me that Christine had started manifesting female attributes ( breasts etc) and so she HAD to have a sex change... I spent the next 10 years praying for breast developement so I too would HAVE TO HAVE a sex change only to become more and more discouraged.. Still the urge was very strong and I consciously and unconsciously continued to express my femininity in any way that I could without getting into TROUBLE.. Luckily the hippie movement , glitter rock and punk rock came along. I was rebellious and the black sheep of the family .. I would sooner have brought down the entirety of western civilization than grow up to be a man in it.. I was happy enough in my weirdness but often ashamed of it.. I met many drag queens and like marginals over the years and was always fascinated... Frankenfurter, from Rocky Horror, however frightened me off the idea because I was affraid I would end up or be seen as such a person..I had thought of getting bootleg hormones in the early 70's but was scared off that with the death of Candy Darling who was my dream ideal...I purged myself completely between Aug 1988 and Jan 2001 and thought that I had finally OUTGROWN it...
BUT.....
suddenly SHE was there again and stronger than ever.. I went fulltime during the next summer saying, "I don t care what anyone thinks anymore, I AM HAPPY and I will not go back"..on the first of January 2002 I wrote an e-mail to a stranger whose name intrigued me from a Candy Darling Yahoo group.. I had never done such a thing before in my life.. She wrote right back and we began a deep relationship, she was the first T-girl I had ever met and she was six months into HRT.. Her name was foxglove9 and I love her more than anyone, although we have no RELATIONSHIP. She is my SISTER. Three weeks later I began HRT myself... Stephanie ( I helped choose her name) is now my number one assistant with my record label. I don't know what I ever would have done without her.. We met in person for the first time last February and walked around Manhattan together and she went to my show at Manatoba's.. we are devoted to one another in ways that I can't explain..She doesn't go to these "older" girl forums.. but has many friends in the "Aubrey Frost/TGclubhouse circle".. mostly under 30 T girls..She was also the NewYork State Nintendo Champion when she was 12 and looked like Bart Simpson.. She has transitioned into a very elegant and pretty young lady..I can't exactly say that she is a roll model because she is half my age but we have both had a profound influence on one another.

donna